Setting the Stage

I haven't blogged in years.  5 years, actually.   My last blog entry was written from Africa and my blogs were articulate.  I was also completely idealistic.   I was spunky, passionate about God, people, life and love.   Since then I've gone to grad school for a Master's degree in Social Work that hasn't been used, married an amazing man who is on an unbelievable adventure of his own and become a mom to a sweet, but very spirited son.  I cherish them, but they can both be exhausting.  It seems like I've lived 100 different lives in the past 5 years, but with each new role new lessons and passions have emerged and old passions have been buried deeper and deeper under the layers of surviving everyday life.  Over the past five years, I have often felt completely out of control.  Let's just say that my husband's boss is REALLY demanding and my husband has very little control over his career.  God is in control and we surrender it daily which has brought us two defining miracles along the way.  It's been amazing to watch this unfold, but sometimes I feel like I'm just tagging along on someone else's adventure.  We both have to be flexible, prepared for anything and ready to move.  My coping mechanism is to "go with the flow" and "have fun on the adventure," and while I still believe in both of my mantras, it has really contributed to my current state of complacency.   But recently, God has been calling me out of complacency.   He is reawakening some of the old flames in my heart.  He is calling me to another adventure, but I haven't the slightest idea what it is, when it will be and how I'm supposed to be involved.   It might be tomorrow or 20 years from now, but stay tuned...